In a Relationship....

With ..........School!!!!!!!

I am a full time student again. Summer went by in a blur and now tomorrow I have my fourth day of school, 2nd week of the semester and the first real impression of the new "fling" in my life. I had to have at least 12 or more units for school. I didn't get into two of the classes that I was planning on taking, so I ended up with French 1- Tuesday and Thursdays from 8am-10:50am (If i go on a mission, I'd love it to be called to France or Quebec to speak French! as if i actually could decided where i go right?!) Microbiology Tuesdays and Thursdays, Lab from 1pm-3:50pm then Lecture from 5:30-6:45pm (seriously it's overtaking my life!!!) And then September 7th I start an Interior Design class on Wednesdays from 9am-12:20. (This I'm hoping is really fun!) I like my classes, but they are hard. I forgot how much dedication a language takes and micro is SO detail oriented I seriously have so much to study. I'm only taking 3 classes yet I have the most binders/books since starting college....I'll think I'm going to try to get the rolling backpacks to come back into style to help my back out with all these books.....I know studying is worth it and I'm determined to get good grades so if I don't ask to hang out with anyone, I have forgotten you, I am just studying my life away right now. I plan on applying to several different nursing programs the end of the spring semester. So fingers crossed! Until then I'll be busy with my super clingy boyfriend named School. Here's to the next 16 weeks of no social life...

Venting.

I'm not the kind of person to usually complain too much, I try to stay positive and I've learned to not let things get to me. But sometimes you can't take it. Today is one of those days.

I've spent the last 7 weeks in EMT school, 3 days a week, 6 hours of classroom time a day, endless hours of late night studying and hopes in getting a job where I can progress with my career in the medical field. Today, Around 6 am I woke up from side pain. The only of the time I've had pain like this was here once again, I though it was my back, because I'd be dancing all week. I knew better, but continued to deny it... for SOME reason I thought more I denied it the less likely is was kidney stones. I tossed and turned for an hour with the pain in my back and then Jumped into the shower, the hot water help a ton so I got out and dresses, it was 7:30 and I have to leave by 8 to be to school on time and was determined to go. Slowly but surely I was ready by 8 but the pain was more intense then last time. I walked into my living room and melted onto the couch I knew as soon as laid down there was no way I could drive. I can't even describe how miserable I was. I called school to ask them about missing today and no one answered so I left a message, I called my friend ashley and she came over, between her and my roommate Ava, they got me as comfortable as possible, not caring that I was throwing up or squirming around every 10 seconds...I'm so lucky to have good friends in my life. The pain was worse than before and so I went to the ER. They thought I could be dehydrated, so they gave me an IV and pain medication and nausea medicine. I had a CT scan and found 5 kidney stones (UH OH) one which was really large and traveling which was giving the most pain. I was in the ER still when the school's secretary called me and told me that because I missed a "mandatory review day" I was dropped from the program...... 3 DAYS BEFORE MY PROGRAM WAS OVER. I was crying so hard when they told me that the nurse had to calm me down. I got discharged with 3 medications and went to fill them and found out that my insurance doesn't cover any of my prescriptions... sooo $97 later.... I had my medicine. I ate lunch and took medicine and went down to my school to talk in person, they said because I signed the program's contract stating If I were to miss any of the days that were mandatory I would be dropped and that they can't make exceptions for me or they would have to make exceptions for everyone. I left sobbing and I'm so lucky I had Ashley with me. I got home and layed in bed and took a 3 hour nap (vicodin helped that)

I'm so sad about everything ... I know things happen for a reason, but right now I'm having a hard time seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I don't know why I'm supposed to be out of the program or why I had to have kidney stones of all the days to get them I'd get them today... I feel so lost. and I still have to have the stone pass sometime....owie.... I'll get over it sometime or other .. but for now this really sucks.

Working and Flirting

I'm a host at a restaurant in Signal Hill. I work a lot so all the regulars know me. Here are some of my favorite lines I get from customers.... all of which have been said after they've been intoxicated.

" You're so much prettier than the last time I saw you! Now when I come back again you better work on being more pretty"

(i'm not sure how to take this one)

"So, is this what you do when you're not modeling and acting"

(no sir, I love hosting so much I gave up my dream as an actress and model)

" I'm SOOOooOO proud of you. I'm so glad you're making good decisions"

(thanks lady, even though I just met you, i'm proud of you too)

There are actually more that I have written down somewhere. It makes work pretty funny. I'll keep my list updated so you all can have a laugh too.

Summer Blur

Summer has been packed full of super fun things. School is starting in 3 WEEKS!! Yikes. Here are some of the things I've been up to! In really no particular order :)

I get to nanny these cute girls !!
went to my first Galaxy game with this pretty lady!

ate a very LARGE smore.

JIll and Ethan got married! I was a bridesmaid with some of my best friends!

This isn't even close to all my adventures... which I'm sure I'll do another string of pictures soon.

Some important things coming up:

1. Skydiving on August 11th !!!!!!!!!!!!
2. I start my SOPHOMORE year in college on August 16th [[soooo weird]]
3. I finish EMT school August 17th ! :D